Missed it by One Second, and it Cost Me the Second

Midnight was quickly approaching, and I was frantically typing and editing my thoughts. It was a race against the clock!

I completed my thoughts, but made a decision that cost me my goal of posting each day. In a split second, I decided to return to the beginning of the post to read it one more time before striking the “publish” button. Initially, I was eyeing the computer’s clock, and then I was caught up in the words. Before I knew it, 11:58 pm became 12:00 am, seemingly missing 11:59 pm altogether! In a moment, just one second, I was defeated! My streak was broken!

My heart sank, and then shattered by the clock’s hand that ticks away the seconds, and the October 2nds. Why did I look back? Why did I linger over the sentence? Why didn’t I hit the button, risking a POSSIBLE error, but realizing a CERTAIN victory?

Why ask, “Why?” No answer will ever satisfy!

Now, it is 12:30 am, and I am completing my second post of the day. By all accounts, I should be happy, but I am not. I am yearning for what can never be, and in the process, I am wasting time and energy. Enough already!

I am heading to bed, but not in defeat. I forgive myself for my choice, and choose let go of its associated sadness. I plan to rest well, and rise in victory over the opportunity to begin again with my sights set on a new goal. And, I wish you the ability to gift yourself likewise. Forgiving ourselves and moving forward is the perfect way to position ourselves for victory.

Goodnight!